I miss you more than usual today Grandma. Our family is falling apart little by little and I don’t know what to do. You would be the one that we would run to in these situations, you would have been the person to pull us all back together. Paige seems to be having more and more issues everyday and none of the medicines are helping her. Mom is struggling to find ways to help her and everyone else in the family, but she can’t do it the way that you did. Grandpa is dealing with all of this stuff the worst though. I’m not completely sure what’s going on with him, but he’s not doing good and it’s worrying me. You were our family’s rock, you were my anchor, we still need you. I still need you. On a good note, Andrew is working a really good job and starting to show that he can support his soon to be family. Traci’s belly is getting bigger and bigger daily, I hate that you are missing it, so does Andrew. What makes me even sadder is that you won’t be there when I have kids or when I get married or for any big events yet to come in my life. I miss you so much, I’m still not ok. I really wish I could just call you right now and talk to you like we use to. You would be proud of me though, I’m with someone who makes me happy and doesn’t treat me like shit. You would love him, I wish you could have met him. I’m in good hands now, I know you were always really worried about that.
Can you please make an appearance in my dreams again soon? The last time was about a week ago. It always feels so real and you always help me with whatever I’m dealing with at that time. I really feel like this is the way that you are still staying in my life and if this is the only way I can really still talk with you, then I’ll keep it.
I miss you more than anything and love you even more. Best friends forever Gma. <3